The more I think about us, the more I think “why not?”
Josh Bennett (via thesouldrifter)
“While it would be easy for me to talk about my family’s financial trouble, my abuse as a child well into my younger teen years, my learning disorder, or even the obstacles my university has presented me with, I feel that its prudent to talk more about myself as a whole.
The aforementioned story lines in my life have shaped me - and I say this in the most humble of ways - into a remarkable person. My personal motto has always been “let your past make you better, not bitter”, and I feel that I have done just that. I am a hardworking, goal oriented, self motivated woman who never accepts no as the answer unless thats the answer I wanted. And while I may not know exactly where I am going in life, I know that I can only go up. However, that is not to say that there have not been times where my mind has been riddled with doubt and confusion. It’s those times that have hurt me the most; It’s those times that encouraged the infestation of insecurity, indecisiveness and procrastination.
Ultimately, that combination of deficient characteristics brewed together to create fear; and it was that fear within me - the fear of failing, of being wrong, of disappointing - that kept me from reaching my full potential. My life was encased in fear. As I accelerated towards a life that I thought I wanted, life’s opportunities buffeted this fear-bubble, falling back, never to be seen again. It was only when I learned to slow down -due to another series of unfortunate events - that I was able to realize what I’d missed out on. And it was with this new perspective that I truly understood regret.”
I just want to build a blanket fort big enough to slow dance with someone in it.